own time

it is very important to have your own time be it in the train, planes or toilet. as humans, we are co dependent with other beings. we are at time afraid to be alone. we need other people to talk to maybe to validate our very existence.

i have been traveling much in the last week or two. i was in kuching, kuantan, singapore and penang. next week, i will be in sabah for another townhall. secretly, i love to travel there alone. if i am alone, i am able to thing thru what has happened in the past. i am able to digest difficult concepts and make it simple. i am able to plan the next few moves ahead. i am able to think!

we are moving all the time from the time we get up in the morning, taking a shower, driving to work, attend meetings, doing reports, catching up with the bosses, replying emails, driving back home, eating dinner, doing small household chores, catch up with the people you love and the cycle repeats again the next day.

we don’t have time to think sometimes. most people live their lives this way, like a robot on auto pilot. i don’t believe thats my destiny. i need time by myself to think. people who are close to me would understand and give me space. people who don’y understand does not matter.