It has been almost a year since I updated this blog. I thought this blog is dead. Fortunately, it provides a psychological therapy when I write. When I need to think, I will write

Where do I start? Well, for a start, I have been documenting my thoughts for 10 years on this space. Yup, ten long years. During that time, many things had happened. It is kinda funny and heart warming reading back all the events that happened and documented here. I did not realised its some sort of diary for a decade of me.

Every once in awhile in our lives, we reached a junction where we need to decide to turn LEFT to RIGHT. No right answer in this journey, just consequences of our decision that we have to live with. My time has come to make that difficult decision again in my ripe old age.

On left, we have status quo minus an important being in my life. On right, new adventure begins while big sacrifices has to be made. Either way, it will impact many lives now and in the future. Is there a 3rd decision? Perhaps.

These decision tree is causing stress to my body to be honest. That’s life I guess. Can’t win them all. We all gonna die anyway.

Have not been getting that warm feeling of late. Maybe i am too busy with life that i failed to stop and ‘smell the roses’ so to speak. There has to be something more than this. Need to prepare my mind for next year

Time to evaluate how my career is going. I was pretty stoked to be in the new team doing things that nobody does. Unfortunately, polical issue comes into play. Not a good politician, i think its time for me to move on. 

So whats next? Not too sure. Will see how things are moving. 

another year passed and i am 47 few weeks ago. age forces me to get a pair of glasses. thankfully, this is for night driving. not for daily wear yet… i ditched my glasses 3 years ago when i did my lasik. it was good while it lasted

career wise, things are moving quite smoothly. moved to the group after 4 years doing technology operations and transformation. i am liking my role in the organization. its a thinking role that allows me to explore. lets see how long i will find this interesting.

until then, i promise to write more. my english has been deteriorating. i need to brain exercise.

A friend just declared that he is buying the Porsche GT4. Wow, I am happy for him. Looks like my dream of getting one of those is getting dimmer by the day. There are more expenses to pay as time goes by. They are not letting up.

For me to realize my dream requires courage. Something I don’t want to think about this year. Do I settle with what I have or do I persue my dream? Something got to give.

One day at a time is my life motto. Can’t think to much of what’s coming or what’s behind me. Today, I am sitting at my dinner table and read 2 news paper. I like it. It a simple life. On other days, I will be running around going thru the motion that I survive another day.

As much as I like the simple life, I made it more complicated. I deserve it. However, in moment like the last 1 hour – of me reading and reading without any distruption, I am happy.

last night, i did not sleep well. the root cause is the tea i drank before sleeping. when i woke up this morning, i was a bit groggy. then i went driving. lack of sleep cause me to lose focus and drive absolutely horribly. if there is any evidence required, this is it. lack of sleep will effect your performance people.

i used to be able to listen to music and work. now, the brain needs absolute concentration to work. when i was young, it was not the case. i wonder why.

i have been not well for the last month. my nose or something kept on producing flam which in turn causing my throat to be itchy. i found myself unable to have a good night sleep. i was coughing hard.

need to understand the root cause of this problem.