went up goh tong this morning. all four tires are new. just changed them last week for RM980 each. they are worth it. the drive went smooth and i got it recorded on my go pro. pretty decent video. enjoy

 

‘when the going gets tough, the tough gets going‘ we have heard this a gazillion times before.

there are bad times and there are good times. when good times comes, savour it. enjoy it. there is no need to feel quilty about it. you deserve it. just soak the warmth ray of good.

when the bad times comes, don’t let it shake your confidence. don’t feel useless. don’t give up. just brace yourself and fight on to live another day.

life is a cycle. sometimes you are up, sometimes you are down. just enjoy the ride.

Still no inner peace. Doing nothing for 7 days still does not provide inner peace. Perhaps I need to leave this place. Perhaps a different environment will do me good. My hypothesis that staying at home and be comfortable with what I have has failed to lift me up emotionally. 

Day 6 of my break. Been running errands since. Not much of a holiday but my brain did show a glimps of getting bored. It started to think about work this morning. Hmmm.

Sent M3 for a check as windscreen washer was not working. Mechanic managed to fins the problem. Going to change the water pump.Hopefully this will solve it.

After whole year of working almost 12 hours a day, it’s time for me to take a break. Yes, I am on leave until end of the year. No I am not going anywhere overseas.

My personal goal this couple of weeks are to slow down, put my head back together properly, internalize what had happened and plan for the future. It’s easier said than done. There are distractions. Social media and chats are the worst.

Everyday we move quickly from appointments, dinners, events and such that we run in cruise control. We are not experiencing, we are busy running. We measure ourselves against number of hours spent on meetings, number of events, number of people we have met and how much money we re compensated. Have we ever stop……..and think…….and do nothing ……and be aware of our lives…..? 

I want to disconnect from the world but I can’t. There are too many people dependant on me to be ‘there’. I wish I have 1 week of my personal time with no internet, no chat, no ‘how are you’, no distractions. I want to be with myself again. Just me myself and I.

Thoughts are still not clear as you can see. Hopefully at the end of the year, clarity will be a friend.

i am about to change role again. the last time i did this was 4 years ago. somhow, i am looking forward to this change. see, i have been doing what i am doing now for the last 3++ years. in january 2015, it will be the 4th year. i am bored with the same ol same ol

my new role will be the last hurrah. at least, this is what i think anyway. i am building something cool. i am building for people to use and hopefully they will like it. to be honest, i have no idea how to do it…. but i am sure i will figure it out, like i ways do. worst case scenario, if in doubt, flat out.

can i have my brain back please? I have just finished a 7 hour meeting and its draining my brain. at this moment, i am charging it and hope to get it back before 4pm. i will have another meeting at 4. the meeting may or may not end at 8pm. if earlier, i would consider it a bonus.

stumble upon a new tv series yesterday. mr.robot. i have to say i have only seen the first episode and i am hooked. i am not going to spend time giving you the low down of the story, you can look it up here. coming from tech savvy person, the series has credibility. data center with metal barriers looks like mine in cyberjaya 🙂

managed to download the 1st season yesterday. will binge watching this weekend. this lead to the question, should i fininsh it in one go or should i savor  it over a period of time? the new season yet to be shown….. hmmmm

everybody needs progress in their lives. be it in their personal lives or career path. my turn has come. i am thinking of changing my parh again after 4 years in the same position and role. i should be uncomfortable. i am not. perhaps i have mastered of the art of change. i evolve every few years as i observe this as progress.